Trauma is tricky. It has a nasty habit of sneaking up behind you and taking a bite out of your ass when you aren't looking. It hurts and it's hard, and it needs to be dealt with, but if you aren't careful, you end up spending all your time on yesterday, and not enough on today. Perception shapes reality and reality is tricky too. Reality will start manifesting almost immediately whatever you think about all the time.
Tomorrow never comes, if all we have to look forward to are yesterdays. So it's time to leave yesterday to yesterday, tomorrow to tomorrow, and deal with NOW.
Forgiveness? Not today. maybe tomorrow.